想念

吃东西的时候 不论是什么

就爱打开PPS 看着美食节目一边吃

自己一个人 想象着

在家里好吃好住 一天吃很多很多

记得妈妈问我是不是从难民营跑出来的

来到这里一天吃两餐 有时候吃快熟面 有时不知道要吃什么

好朋友女王恋爱了 能一起的时间也以前少了

我想念一家人吃东西的快乐

为什么想到这些 就哭了

我很想回家 真的很想回家

可是我现在什么都做不到 要怎样回家

T^T

Pressure

Assignment Assignment...

Tutorial Tutorial...

Midterm test all coming towards..

Pressure become heavier and heavier..

I don't want to get the worse result already

I don't want to waste my times

Blog update lesser...

Assignment discussion later..

Mid-term Study later...

I think I need to burn midnite oil today again..

Sometimes listen to emo song alone..

Try to listen to my heart...

Calm feeling I have never met before..

Hope I will grow up more and more afterward

KAHYAO BAH GERMAINE!

我的女王加油吧！

有一个性格像女王的好朋友 最近谈了恋爱

变了 像个奴隶

不是说性格变不好什么的 是生活重心换成了自己的男朋友

眼泪多了 烦恼多了 什么都多了

可是我不知道 笑容有没有少

不想再投入爱情 而是选择喜欢在爱情边缘

看别人投入爱情的样子

是嘲笑吗 不是

是羡慕吗 我承认有时候会 可是我宁可单身

有一个人这样子告诉我 读书时候的爱情和工作时候的爱情是不一样的

我省思了很久

真的 失去的比得到的更多

因为我们不知道 他是不是我们要找的人

我曾经浪费很多时间 去寻觅这个不切实际的爱情

欣赏别人 总好过去伤害自己

从别人的经验来提醒自己 不是更好吗

今天谢谢女王 让我找到了自己许久都找不到的错误

也让我找到真正的目标

就像妈妈说的 烦恼真的是我自己找出来的

不是我不可能做不到简简单单的生活 而是自己把生活搞到太复杂了

为了家人 加油一次好吗？

虽然没办法在女王的爱情上帮忙什么 只能希望她眼泪少一点 笑容多一点

不管难过还是快乐 只要记得都由我陪着她 好吗

今天觉得心特别的轻 当问题解开的时候 原来笑容也会变得比较多

对不起了 那个曾经被我恨的人

我只想说谢谢 因为你 我才找到原来的自己在哪里

我不想再后悔了 加油

为了家人的幸福 Germaine加油！

在还没做到自己的要求之前 绝不轻易接触爱情

答应自己 一定要做到

exam

Finally sunzi midterm finish le!!!

Hooray...

luckily I can do it^^

That lecturer looks evil..

But not bad also....

1st day aza aza fighting!

p/s: Germaine Buck up!

happy

找到存活的理由..等我...好吗？

Calm

I feel so calm

After I found out my problem

Really...

For now

Is the moment to solve it

No matter how

Give me a last chance

OK?

I will do it!

谢谢你

人生最重要的 是找到一个了解自己的好朋友

她说得对 说出了我一切又一切 别人都不了解的事情

我爱妈妈 可是我做了伤害妈妈的事 这是爱吗

我爱家 可是我趁一时之快 做了明知道不对的事 这是爱吗

她告诉我 我用错了爱

我怕妈妈 又做出了不该做的事

她爱妈妈 她会避免自己做让妈妈伤心的事

她给了我两个字 “活该”

骂得好 我凭什么怪人

我凭什么说爱 我连爱自己家人这种表现都做不好

搞到妹妹恨我 弟弟骂我 妈妈气我

这难道是我要的爱？

我心里要的家是这样的吗？

为什么一直觉得别人变了 原来最先变的人是我

来得及吗？

不要贪一时之快

妈妈说过这句话 她说了这句话

好多人说过这句话 为什么我一而再再而三的忘记了

我永远不冲破自己的那一关 我永远都只是一个失败的人

妈妈 你愿意等我到那一天吗？

Me = Empty

Mind=empty

Soul=empty

Germaine=empty

Life is No More.

Heart is No More.

I Have Nothing.

End Up.

Why happen such thing before exam everytimes?

Why?

How can I study? I want...

But I can't.

Bleeding

为什么快乐来得快 走得也快

一分钟前的原谅 一分钟后的放弃

我到底该怎么做

我不是为了钱才回家 我不是为了钱才回家

就算全世界诬赖我也好 可是 现在说这句话的人

是我最爱的妈妈 我彻底的崩溃了

爱上了血的味道 当手上 脚上沾满了自己的血

眼泪才肯停止 为什么

我从来不想怨恨任何人 因为我知道世界上最该怨恨的人是我自己

可是为什么 没有人明白我在想什么

我不喜欢把自己心里的话说出口

我不喜欢把自己的烦恼说出口

因为我不想把自己的事加注在别人身上

知道自己已经够没有用了

为什么还要揭伤疤

在伤口上撒盐？

流血的伤口不痛 因为心更痛

连呼吸都是痛的

没有人明白 家人对我来说真的很重要

如果有一天 家人放弃了我

我也会放弃我自己

不是因为我依赖什么

而是重心没有了 心死了 人也死了

Love II

Family Love is the most happiness in this world

Luckily I feel it

I am not alone.

:)

对不起

14通未接电话-妈

我妈妈打给我了 终于 我大哭了一场

我放了静音 所以没注意到

我妈妈告诉我 她是世界上最笨的人 因为我一直又一直伤她的心

我弟弟骂我 是世界上最没有用的姐姐 因为我一直伤妈妈的心

他问我为什么这样 我答不出

对不起

最后一次机会了 我不要再犯错 真的不要

我真的爱我的家人

可是为什么 我做不到我要的我

我要证明 好吗

谢谢你给我机会 我要做到

不然 我真的会失去我自己

不只你们原谅不了我

我一辈子也不会原谅我自己

Love

Sometimes I thought that Love is near with me

But it is far from me actually

I saw xx guy flirt with another girl in FFS last night

Maybe he don't know I recognise that girl as well

WHAT THE HELL

My heart laugh me for my "NAIVE THINKING"

Hmmm...

Luckily I have been escape from that tricky Trap

Otherwise I will be hurt one more time again

Why guy always flirty although they have their own girlfriend already?

Is that more "lazak"?

For me

If that guy did the same thing to his current girlfriend

He will do the same way on YOU

Be CLEVER girl...

Girls always SILLY

Me too..

T^T

I love "Music"

I love "Dance"

I love "Alcohol"

This Thursday, I will have singing performance at Kampar

My 2nd time to sing on stage

With my DEAR singing buddies..

I really enjoy the time with them..

They make me high..make me laugh..

And my "First Time" with them..

really unforgetable

I am so happy to be with them

Because of music

make us know each other

That's why

"MUSIC IS MY SOUL, MY LIFE, MY BREATH"

Because of The path of dreamz..

I realise that..

I love to Sing

^The Dreamz of Mine

^My Gor Gorss and a didi

^My dear DAJIE, JieJiess and a MuiMui with ME

I will remember the time

When the 10 of us gathering together

just a simple spirit of

"We Love Music"

Sick + Unhappy..

Keep having sick on this semester

Fever Flu Cough Headache Dizzy...

Pressure = Suffer

Germaine is not Germaine at this moment

I nearly cant breathe anymore

My heart beat seem that out of my control

I so scare....

But I don't know what should I do

I just hope mummy will forgive me one day after

It is ONLY a way I can live more brighter

T^T

P/s: Germaine really sad and Emo..But she pretend that..She is "Happy"...

Midnite - Apple eating^^

Hungry Hungry....

APPLE?@@.....

Actually I dislike Apple..

LOLZ....

But it is the best solution to fill in my tummy...

This apple sooooo RED

Busy Life -Coming-

Busy Life is coming

Stress, Stress, Stress

Feel wanna cry out

I just need a warm embrace from YOU

Can I?

-Mummy, I really miss you..-

T^T

New photo taking with Sunglasses^^

My eye so swollen =x

I love the left side photo of mine..

Aren't you?

Need you Know

I fall in Love to this song suddenly

Need you Now..

But YOU never know....

Schools fee...*sigh*

PTPTN loan reach already

But how?

It is not enough for me.

I don't want to tell mummy about this

because I don't want to let mummy feel that

I am willing to back home because requirement of 'Money'

I know that I am not that such of Money Face

Maybe this sem-break

I am unable to back my Sweet Home

I intend to find job for alive

But, I don't know where should I go.

What should I do.

I am really alone at this moment.

Who can tell me?

ジャーメーン , ガんばで..^^

心配しないでください すべてが良くなる..

私は何かを主張する 成功は私の手にある！

However Many Hundred Days 第几个100天

No matter How many hundred days

-I am stil be yours.-

Always Online

This is the way, we know each other.

Maybe it also will be a way, we leave each other.

No matter where we are, I will Always Online in your Heart.

Because

-It is our memories.-

Happy Birthday, Mummy.

-Mummy, Happy birthday to you.-

I so sad. I can't celebrate it with you.

Even

A wishes, A call, A smile..

Also become meaningless.

I don't know where is my initiative to exist again.

My world is Blank.

Where can I go?

Who am I?

I don't know.

That will be a Time for me to Leave.

Plz forgive me.

Where is My heart?

"Don't think that you have been hurt by others, then thought that everybody will hurt you so"

"If you think like that, you ought to be alone forever."

"No true Love anymore in your Life."

"....................................."

Because I have been hurt, that's why I scare to be hurt.

My heart is fragile.

I can't make myself collapse again.

But yesterday, I lose myself, I cried nonstop for many hrs.

I thought sleep can make me forget those matter.

-30 hrs-nonstopped sleeping-

When my mum told me:

"Don't step into our house again!"

Where is my Heart?

I broke it by my hand again.

Because of my silly action.

Bye.

-My heart.-

傻 -Silly-

脑 又开始傻了

不为什么而傻 是为爱情而傻

曾答应过不去随便触碰爱情的尾巴 可是不听话的手指

逼我自己跌进在一次又傻又混浊的陷阱

自以为自己不再对爱情迷糊

都是自命清高惹的祸

难过 又能向谁诉说

我开始质疑 自己的脑是用什么做的

充满着不切实际的基因

上一秒的信誓旦旦 下一秒的违背自我

一来一往的挫折 值得吗

我不是情场上的高手 乔装自己能抵抗一次又一次的洒脱

现实中 跌过了

虚拟中 伤过了

然而 自己却怎么一直瞧不见那一层又一层的斑驳

呻吟着伤口 却又一次的在伤口上撒盐

很痛 可是醒了吗

醒了吧 不要再睡进想象中的梦

梦是美 可是朦胧

伸手一碰 希望抓到些什么

可是睁开眼睛 即是一场空

是你的就是你的 不是你的 再怎样强求 也不可能是你的

好经典的一句话 我看过了 读过了

可是 行动过了吗

两声长啸 挥一挥衣袖 豁然发现 什么都没有

留下的 是无名的寂寞

I will be happy =)

Germaine will Be happy..

From this second..

When she decided to be Happy..

Not for others

Just For her own sake^^

=Emo=

What I was doing Why am I here

Is fate playing with me either I am playing with Fate

I have no reason to shed my tears

However I Have 10,000 kinds of reasons to let myself extricate from the world

I am sick of who am I I am tired of my living style

But I know I need to repay by what I owe

I need to be punished by what I done

If free will in exchange for the happiness of others

...please do let me go...

Mysterious Mr.V .....(1)

Friend For Sale where the sprout of our LOVE

Fate playing tricks on me he asked you step into my life accidentally

your appearance is the most happiness in my world

I hate your unsolicited

You make me smile Make me suffer

even make me sacrifice myself for Love

“I want to marry you, may I?”

-I once used to think that you are my forever But you have to leave my world-

わたしは、あなたを愛しています
あなたは私を聞くですか？

Relying on your broad shoulder staring at the huge sky of stars

is a kind of happiness

Holding your warm hand I naively thought that you will always be mine

"Do you still remember the bench on the basketball court with our memories?"

-where our kiss hidden our hug reserved-

To be continued.....>>>>>